CALMNESS GOAN TO ROWDINESS MUMBAIKAR

Preparations. Excitement. Suspense. Discussions. Planning. Mumbai. CGTMSE. Office. It was all set after so many yes no's finally it was GOA. Training cum extended weekend getaway. However, word training was too bemuse for all. What training, how long, why in GOA, who will be speakers. It was creating confusions. Then, there was some sort of thrill as news came no outside speakers for training. But then, more suspense our officials will be taking training sessions WHY WHAT WHY "there" WHY "not here". Everyone was putting their logic what things can be imparted at training as basic purpose was told by one of the official. Before that GOA was cancelled options Mahabaleshwar & Matheran ... Faces down ......GOA was thrill calling in cabin telling you will be flying to GOA so much excited then Matheran/Mahabaleshwar. How instantly mood changes, how quickly feelings, demeanor changes. There is something to think over; question arises why there is sudden change in mien. If options are not given & orders are given WOULD there be change in demeanor. In every circumstance of life this thing happens. Have we realized or asked self ever why so why our happiness instantly goes away or why we feel down. Perception is that human behavior works what its heart says - even when you love someone its from heart but IS THAT true Naah!!! everything works from brain ... love.. priorities.. options.. measuring feelings.. fights.. animosity.. from nothing to everything its all in our mind. When we have something happy good bad it doesn't sheds away from our thinking or from our life, we start putting blame on heart its too weak to let it away; even this is thought from mind everything is from mind if it works properly it will put everything on right track. However, we think from heart & implement from heart which should be round JUST mind. Even success is obtained achieved by applying mind not heart. Has anyone in politics ever achieved success by working from heart it is always from mind.          

It was GOA there was excitement there was awesomeness. Beauty at Mumbai airport started giving feeling you are on the way to GOA. Beauty? Yeah beauty, in terms of people dressing, their joy, couples going for their honeymoons anything & everything you could see was eye catching. Excitement to have window seats, adventure to see out of window, buzz on flight status when to board. It was all. I never imagined we would share this type of happiness. All the group-ism was changed to togetherness (for time being). One purpose one destination one mindset (to enjoy) can change so much. 

All set, reached resort one hour on & training programme started .. everyone was juggling since morning from home to airport to tiring trip to resort then training. But it was fun learning experience new things learnt something we were not aware of, something we had never put mind on to think about. It is always one gets to learn, life is full of training.. every time one learns new things unintentionally. Then Boss who toss came & everyone was super excited to meet him. He is bundled with joy, excitement & commitment. He is boss with every quality you could think of. He still has that child in himself that teenage cum adult has - fun/excitement in him. He thinks, he analyzes, he put forth at right time what other person needs. He is super joyful person. When I traveled to Nepal or travel to any other place alone I have never seen Indians at this age to be so excited, joyful & passionate. They are rare of rare. But foreigners are specially Americans & Germans as I interacted with them. One thing I noticed every time I go on trip that when an Indian is on his own solo trip he never goes & asks to hangout with other bunch of people, might be reason of shyness or why to disturb others or I don't know them they might rob be anytime but this is not with foreigners there are always up to you never scared to ask you CAN I JOIN you guys. This type of attitude is so cherishing, you love to be with people from other countries, sharing new things, getting into with others knowing them is another thing which excites me on any trip, their culture, their daily life, how its different from us, there is too much to know about & suddenly within a week you part away as you both have different path to go to. However, sometimes new friends new relations builds up. Tracking with a German Doctor in Himalayan region, chating with an Italian on the way to Pokhra (Nepal), gossiping with a man who had "DESI KATTA" with him, discussing schooling & under graduation system in India with 2 Boston university professors, addressing something new to people around you. This all fills me with excitement & makes me super enthusiastic. 

Next day we hired car & we were down town to BAGA beach. It was fun, there were tides, golden sunlight cool breeze, fully packed beach with enthusiastic people. Company of 13 different people whom you work with but don't know each other (just a bit). Everyone has different personalities & character if you can travel with people about whom you rarest, then it is possible to travel with such sort of people about whom you don't know anything & can share awesome traveling experience. We were on beach, we were in water but we were only three in sea along with me was my good friend & our GM I have not seen him so happy until he was in water we three were enjoying in water like we are too good friends knowing each other from very long time; the boundary of employer & employee was breaking a bit for a bit that was cool & also it needs to broken otherwise you can't freely enjoy. Hiring of bikes riding on GOA roads this freedom, this thing being togetherness was like having oil free prawns. Then we were to night cruise there was music, there was dance & most happening thing was dim lights otherwise I wont dance ;). There was such elation. Then going back to resort sitting in one room gossiping sharing something about each one sharing something which others were not aware off. Togetherness was developing & developing. 

Early morning walk to beach & setting up camp fire and jotting down wood from nearby areas with searchlights picking heavy woods along with dry coconut leaves dancing on random music feeling warmness from heat in cool atmosphere. There was one man who helped us in everything. This is beauty of every trip I make somewhere you find a at least a person who is so amazing & helpful who feel like manh thank you for all help otherwise part of trip would not have been so happening . He was so enthusiastic.  Best part of tourist place is that people LIKE him & these sort of people even love to be part of groups there are so into it they don't feel shy. From early morning darkness to sunrise we were there full of energy slowly slowly energy level decreased as sun rose. We then headed to our resort had good walk along the way silence on road which we miss here in Mumbai or else where in urban part of country. Everything was so calm, harmonious, tranquil and in that we were playing our music so loudly but I went far ahead to be feel peace, feel the amicable environment. Finally, reached resort had a good heavy healthy breakfast sitting aside pool bluish crystal clear water. After finishing breakfast we four people were sitting with legs down in pool one of my friend said should we go in pool but I don't how to swim I replied him if you are feeling to go in then we should surely go in; do whatever you feel just make self happy then we both jumped into pool. Oh manh!! water was very cold. Then I started swimming remembering old days when daily I use to swim & enjoy a lot an hour of happiness years back :(. But now stamina was down it was hard to be underwater though I completed 2 rounds of frees style in one go but I was struggling. Then one more guy joined us he knew swimming we had some underwater & free style. Then I showed him how to sit with cross legs in water & backstroke he tried but didn't catch up no one can't in just one go it takes time. Even I took time to learn these things. He was nice company. Where I learned swimming it was city's one of the best club. We had competition on last day among all best swimmers of two coaches. There were three competition free style, backstroke & underwater. I won first two lost underwater however, my bro won underwater it was nice to have all three titles with us. Finally after an hour or so we came out of pool had a shower that too after two days. Headed to some shopping then to Airport finally to boisterous cacophonous city Mumbai. 

From a calm peaceful silent to a raucous city. A pleasant journey to rowdy ending. New bonding, togetherness, one's joy, closeness, learning & gaining new things, meeting own people knowing each other, friendliness, care for each other, knowing different perspective of life. 

THIS IS WHAT I CALL BEAUTY OF LIFE.                          

          

A day without "SMART PHONE"

I remember days when I was not having mobile phone & having smart phone. A day I make out by leaving home supposed to be back early evening no phone calls from home where are you until some urgent thing needs to be conveyed. I arrange my day schedule according to me. A day I forgot to take my phone with me. I check everything twice thrice before leaving home. But a day when you forgot your “Smart Phone” is the day its need is highest. Most phone calls that day – office calls, client calling, parents calling, some old friend, creditors calling, you are stuck up some where you need google map to make way out, you need some relaxation music to release stress. It is a day which becomes rememberable & remarkable. It is the day when you move into house late at night. It is the day which you remember whole life what all happened with you from morning to evening until you move into house with welcoming songs from your family. It is the day when you are driving your vehicle & suddenly feel something is missing, “why my upper thigh is so loose”, then it gives you shock so many questions to self which remain unanswered “has phone dropped from my pocket when I was driving, whether I have put back into pocket when I was on call while driving, someone pick pocketed while I was in queue for bill submission” . You park you vehicle at road side forgot everything office time, client meeting, doctor’s appointment. You search your bag twice thrice your pockets shirt trousers, everywhere even there where a phone can’t be & must have not been kept. This is the day when no stranger gives you phone for just one call. No STD’s PCO’s.  You reach client place but you can’t borrow his phone it might put bad impression on client or he complains to your boss you might lose your business. All day you are stuck with client calls & your phone ringing continuously. Your parents calling but no answer your boss calling no answer whole day this process continues & when you reach office you immediately make call on your number & a soft voice which irritates you & makes you more tensed – the number you are calling is not available or out of reach. Your battery is down with calls & finally switched off & you have perfect timing to call when it’s switched off. Then you report to your boss for whole day work you provide wrong details. Your boss asks you to provide perfect reports by today & makes you to work a bit longer. Finally late at night you reach home very hungry tensed irritated. You think will get good treatment at home when you come back late. But as you reach without opening your mouth your parents, spouse, siblings everyone at home starts in one noise but different things “why you not reaching phone”, where were you – your phone of reach”, you really were at office or somewhere else”, “Can’t you make a call if you would be getting late”, “you every time gives us tension” n all these makes you more irritated. In one large high pitched noise you say “SHUT UP!!!  I DON’T HAVE MY PHONE I LOST IT”. You throw your bag & move into your room & lock it. Lie on bed and after few minutes you feel something is irritating at lower back thigh then you feel something is there between bed & sheets you remove sheet in one go n there it is your phone the “SMART PHONE” which has made you fool whole day. Time comes time goes time came time went.

THIS IS WHAT I CALL BEAUTY OF LIFE.                

The day the time that day that time

The day I can’t forget never ever. The day I won’t be able to forget never ever. The day which I can’t forgot never ever. When we were building our own house, the day the time I won’t forget. After so many clashes, difference of opinions, financial problems finally we decided to eradicate our house & reconstruct on same land. Housing loan was denied but we were confident to arrange money on self. We invested our monthly salaries in house construction, we broke our fixed deposits, insurance bonus plans, saving schemes, and father took loan against his provident fund & from co-operative society at higher rate. We all were happy that we would be having recurring money inflow for ongoing construction activity which would continue for more than a year. Simultaneously different activities were taking place at pace & more than that financial outflow was at pace. There were labors who were working all day in high cold; high sunlight - for them I would feel petty. They would earn daily wages, a day they missed they won’t get wages how sad on their part. On other hand even if we would take 10 days leave we get same pay. This difference we experience daily which makes us sad but forget within seconds after indulging into our own activities. Every evening we would be preparing tea for our labors, one day we were short of sugar I went to nearby shop, at same time a construction labor from another housing site came & asked  Chini kitne ki hai” How much sugar cost? Shopkeeper said Rs 32/Kg. Labor thought for 5-6 seconds & then said give only half a kg. This is the pain this is the day which is holding high in my mind. A person has to give thought to spend such nominal amount. This we experience everyday on street on beggar’s faces but when I realized it with one who is earning & not able to spend, it gave very bad feeling. This incident happened fifteen months ago but still it’s on my mind. This gave me realization of how high food inflation is & how low is income of people.  On one side we were spending millions of money for our comfort & on other side people were facing sadness, discomfort, hunger. Whenever, this event strikes on mind it gives a pause to my life to my ongoing activities. 

THAT DAY THAT TIME this is what I call BEAUTY OF LIFE                       

GAY BOLT POWELL aur MAI

Years ago when I was a kid , Visiting Goa with family was crazy....After reaching there I found my whole trip very crazy really but this time crazy was low deep sounded crazy. That Goa Site Seeing in GTDC Bus ahhh...it was really a bad idea to be...even when think over my GOA trip It sounds like Dumbo why did you go.

Finally GOA was left behind n reached to MUMBAI. I had been to Mumbai twice n both the time had something amazing can't forget both the Visits.

In Mumbai we were joined by mother's Brother n sister family. After a long day for shopping in bloody Mumbai traffic n that even boarding cousin's Car. Next day Idea was dropped n Finally I had look to lifeline of Mumbai n had a chance to be in. It was really amazing to be in. No seats no space even to stand it was hell like environment. Our station was about to come n my mama said we should all go forward otherwise we will our destination. 

Train Stopped everybody was getting n me too got down. train just stops for 5 secs n when it starts it catches up jumbo like speed. What I saw was amazing everybody was down even me but where the were my relatives. I was looking for them n suddenly I heard a broken sound Hardik n it was nowhere else then train which has taken its strike n started to blow up.

Not Giving a fraction of second thought I ran like Bolt Gay Powell. My heartbeats at station on listening to my name had raised to highest level.Turning back n sprinting all rally races n my medals would bow me that day.At station I remember people were saying don't run.Saying to myself to hell with you If would stand here it would have been a mess of all my life.Its just a day am in Mumbai.How the hell I would be reaching to next station n even if somehow I call my relatives or those in train would board a train back for me. It would be a lifetime scolding or jest on me. 

Taking wise decision n on spurt it was there I was on train n smiling faces.Great you did it.But every time you are not praised for something there are question marks n you have valid reason but the question raiser is never  satisfying person. WHY DID YOU GET OFF THE TRAIN. I was like what, you only said to move forward as we are reaching to our station.But Next one scorching on me I said to move forward n we had next to next station. I was then ohh..I didn't heard you in this noisy environment its just lack of communication.

On Destination making it again hell telling to everyone who were in different compartments n then same at home.Was this necessary or it topic of today n making a timepass out of me n answer to everyone personally.

Such a crap of people.What so ever it was good experience to be in.n What it was when I was in class 7.

14th Sep if am not wrong. Old days childish memories brings smiles.

THIS IS WHAT I CALL BEAUTY OF LIFE

Hai Hai Tera beda garg ho hai hai!!!!!!

Just few days before Diwali , I was held up in files all around. Had to complete all the work before time limit as revenue department would be shut for 3 continuous days & me n my junior were on fire. Office was all silent, no clients , no near by office personnel coming and chatting. Work load could be seen on each table.Suddenly, there was a break to silence. It gave me an impression that someone had died and his relatives are crying endlessly and at extreme. I have my seat in office near window so I took the pain to see what actually was the reason of this nuisance.

Ahhh....What I watched was a havoc...I shouted to everyone in office...n within secs they were on each floor.

Mess was started. Yes , "Homosexuals" finally reached our office too. But for what It was Diwali time n they were here for their "chanda" Hell!!! Their claps could be heard from any corner of our no so called commercial complex.Its really very powerful.I remember few years back I was watching television, there was a Homosexual who was trying to explain why do they go home to home when their is a new born or someone has build up a new home.The reason given was ordinary but there was a point to think upon.As our society has never thought upon this. It was like they don't get jobs anywhere, they don't have any source of Income for daily expenses, even their families reject them.It was a mass appeal on TV to pay them when they come to your door step. I was not watching that show cause that homosexual appeared on that particular day it was because he/she "whatever" represented India under Homosexual category in UNO.

When one of them was in our office everyone was trying to run but CAUGHT. Mukesh ji , our 10 years exp. old employee was held.But he tried to say Sir is not their n I don't have money. Can someone expect them to go without money , so finally Mukesh ji said Ok let me arrange money.Then he went to change room n took out Rs. 50 note.He showed intelligence cause if he would have taken out bunch of notes all would have been gone that moment only.When Mukesh ji was arguing that homo started to tear pages of clients.So he took decision to pay & let off this nuisance from office.

Now everything was cleared from our office, I put up a step outside to see our floor as everybody was out to take a relief. Our office is just in front of stairs which are headed to 3rd floor. As I was out , a homo from coming down attacked me. His/her One hand on my left n another one on my right both of them were on wall as I was totally stuck to wall. He was speaking n asking for money I said Sir is there in office...answer came What I will do with your sir fuck him or what. It was not a moment to laugh.My heart was much more faster now & his ugly face was too near to mine. I was sacred what if It would come more closer to me. At last someone said he paid to another one. Release of hands n I took a deep breath. Still I was sacred I was running n said to one of our neighbor : Bhaiya mai apke office jaa raha hoon he said fine.It was a stock broker office, I locked myself n was looking through key hole as is there anyone coming here. It was by now half an hour I opened the door came back to office.Everybody was gathered in someone else office chatting chatting & chatting.These brokers had also made a group with their clients in corridor...I said thank you n asked have they all gone...a reviled answer YES.
In my office I came to know that its yearly affair on Diwali.I was again stuck up with work but still having picture of that encounter with homo.HELL like experience.Now these people would be going to almost every building in our area n asking for money n people have no choice to say no just to pay them.As they think before any mess happens just loosen up your pockets.It was hell like experience for me , but its their only source of Income.they would be celebrating diwali by this money only.Even they don't think its a happy life for them.Its society which have put bars on their freedom but their are homos which have make their spot in market, they are well known personalities...But freedom applies to everyone not to only one.Society has to change, has to think broadly.For Society all over the world I would say This is what I call is
BEAUTY OF LIFE.

NEW DESTINATION TRAVELER

Hard Core Rainy night ,people sprinting outside n on railway station. Suddenly train arrives n there is more havoc. But What as soon as I enter my AC coach there is pin drop of silence.There has been sudden change of era as in recent past when I use to travel by any transportation whether it be Air crafts, Buses , Trains people use to chat there was an intensity among everyone to know about each other.As of today people come put up there headphones or switch on their screen through out journey n when they land they even don't care who was sitting near by them.Same is the case in AC coaches people just put curtains n take rest n when their destination comes they come out of their shell.These days everyone has been so busy with their lifestyles they really don't have time to look up in any other person.There was a time people use to share good n bad deeds of their life n feels satisfied.But is this so people don't have time or their is something else behind change of this attitude.

The pin drop of silence suddenly converts into loud n endless gossiping, when I saw that lady ahh...she was same who had called her relatives in between her journey to serve with food n water.On station when had a halt she would be clearly audible if a person would be even 50mt. away.Again it raised a question to me why we have this attitude to call our relatives even when we don't care for them what is happening in their life.On the other side we Indians don't have a straight forward attitude to say NO. We think its our duty to go n meet or is this an obligation or would it be bad on their part to say no as some other day people would talking about this issue.Why are we so much caring about society when we don't care too much about self.

From her gossiping on phone it was clear she was going to a destination where she had never been before.Calling so many people n people calling her it was mess in whole coach.She called her relatives to pick her from station at 8 in morning.It created a scene she was only travelling in train.Only Voice in "Bogi" it was like a chai wala screaming to sell his tea.She would be asking every individual who was part of catering service , but finally when got a different answer from all other she was   overjoyed or perhaps she was panicked.It was coach attendant who brought her in qualm.She questioned her twice are you Mister.Then again same story of worry uneasiness withing her...quickly calls being made & informing every known that she would be reaching an hour earlier n what it was just 15mins left when got to know it.
Terrified Terrified Lady Terrified.

Sudden Pack up of bags,pulling recklessly near to gate, asking her relatives to get up who were boarding with her.Why there is so much anxiety within every traveler when destination is about come...would train reach before that 15mins...would that 15mins are so less that she would not reach with baggage at gate....would after that 15mins train would just stop n run away in secs...why so much anxiety.Questionable.
At gate I was standing there too n a person know to city was also standing lady came n started questioning again n again is station about to arrive.Ahhh...Lady when it will come it will be visible to everyone, train would certainly stop for mins n you would have enough time to get down.This is same story for every NEW DESTINATION TRAVELER.I have been a regular traveler to different parts of country every time getting to know different attitude of travelers, every time something different.

Coming back to train, final destination came.I had a relief now no more of loudly gossips no more disturbing voices why is it so.Now this question was troubling me.Why I had a such a feeling why was this with me.Was this her disturbing scenes which was making questions to me.Even I was not knowing about that lady why I was thinking about her so many times.Why she influenced me so much that I was forced by myself to write about her.This is what I call BEAUTY OF LIFE.

THE LOST SUITCASE

Quite a few years ago, In Summers me n my mother relatives traveled to Nathdwara- A religious Place...but According to me its one of the most dirty place I have ever seen , a place of fools , a place of under confident people, a place were religion is sold aahhhh....religion is sold everywhere its best business to be in. Its not my disbelief in God is saying all these things but its cause of many visit n observing same n getting more every time.

A place of fools can be elaborated as when they statues of god they just go mad about they define it as Kitne Ache Darshan Hue , how can one define how good was that as by changing dress of god n putting up jewels on statue , before entering hall where these Darshan are made available you are just fighting to go 1st in , giving bribe to Pujaris/Sevak for giving you 1st preference , taking your child who even doesn't know where he/she is, for what purpose he is in , what good will happen to them by just joining hands of statues WON'T it count to place of fools.According to me GOD is the last thing for self belief.When people doesn't have self reliance they pray n they think it will happen n will happen good.Even when people are why are you doing this kind of fast or this kind of stuff they don't have a proper answer.This again raises my Doubt that Are not these people Under Confident.

Well, one fine late night it would be around 10PM, I did arrived at so called religious place after a long tiring journey which had an surprising destination at Udaipur then we had to hire another Bus for Nathdwara.
We were around 10-12 relatives n equally amount of baggage.One of us said every see up to your bags n then we will go to hotel.My mom did checked out my stuff.We finally arrived at Hotel "New Cottage".
Our Booking was not confirmed until we left Ahmedabad.At reception of hotel we were told its confirmed , my nanny said Takorji Kripa thi Room maadi gau i.e we got room by gods grace. By this time it was 11, we then left for dinner to Chaupati , we were not expecting it would open by this time.Again Voice of nanny n same words ahhh grow up lady.

At room back to Hotel , I was searching for my bag  from the lot to Dress up for Night so as to make myself comfortable.I opened up the bag It was not mine actually someone else also had same VIP ALFA bag ahh what a coincidence same brand same color same size n what I Didn't find my bag.I searched it again called my mom told its not there.She checked up really it was not there.
I got emotional  at that moment it contained my valuable dresses n most important was my practice register for mathematics, it was my whole year efforts in that , then a stupid voice comment came which made her proud to speak that " What will you do with your register you even don't study" , then some chaos laugh.I was hurt, she made same comment sometime back I remember in Ahmedabad itself to  me when I said I have to leave please get my tickets booked I have to study a lot my school will be opening up shortly.I was average student at school but that doesn't ,mean you can anything to anyone n any no. of times. Her Daughter might me intelligent what the hell I have to do with that.I use to mind these people for these silly sayings I use to get emotional that time I was not mature but now when I think of these stuffs I laugh at them n at myself saying to self how idiot I was that I use to mind these things.I am a self made man learned a lot from incidents at home n  outer world , I learned a lot from my Parents n specially my brother most learned person I ever met but thing is what how do you learn from mistake people make their good deeds their attitude towards others their self consideration n about society.Society is one things that is the biggest thing n can be said to be Outer world n in my words its a REEL world.They act day by day mins by mins secs by secs, they go by what other would consider it on their act they are show off kind of people everyone is part of society but I can count on my fingers people who are not fully part of this crap sided society n it includes me.

After some chaos, someone said to me I will get you new clothes being in my very young age they tried to console be by this it was looking like someone is giving for not getting emotional.But again one big thing started they were all at me you have not checked your baggage , you lost it its your mistake , I said mom checked my luggage.But what all being mom's relatives they were not saying anything to her but I was at stake.I wanted to say something at that time not exactly say but scream at each one of them IS THIS NOT THE MISTAKE OF GOD.All things coming in our way positively was all cause of god according to them n then what this suitcase its human error.Yes exactly but why all others were donated in gods goal.
It was a horrible night to sleep, was not able to sleep that night. Next day Ajay (my father : I cal him by his name)arrived.Then me, mama n Ajay went to that company's office through which we had booking n after a long finding n calls n going to another office we got information that a baggage was still there in bus as Driver was asked to check whole bus again we got call n I was like ahh...finally I had it something in my goal.
I called my brother to direct him to collect that bag from Bus "Hanger".Again at that office one who did everything for us , didn't charged a penny for so many calls he made he uttered something which i don't like hear...YEAH SAB TO BHAGWAN KI KRIPA HAI SE HUA HAI MAINE TOH KYA KARA HAI.
It was not over yet mama said now you should come to temple its all gods grace we have found this baggage n that officer also said you should go its only god who is there who do everything for us.
I was forcefully taken to temple, but what to do there I don't know what good will it make to me by joining hands in front of statues.It was very tough to be there in temple.Hell bunch of people , observing was the only thing I still do whenever I m there.Watching observing n getting something new every time.

Getting something new from same place get to know human nature of different people deriving something more making my belief in myself much stronger that I don't stand among these fools: THIS IS WHAT I SAY IS BEAUTY OF LIFE